Goodbye

I woke up early today. Looked around my room and saw my suitcases. I realized where I was and when I was; the end of my year. I lay there just stunned. I didn't know what to do.

Goodbyes are hard, don't know what else to tell you. I went around today numb, feeling just empty. I acted like I would see my friends just tomorrow, but no, I'm not going to. I have refrained from crying at all. I don't want to. I want to be happy before I leave, bring all these memories back with me. I can't help but feel upset about it though. I'm a bit terrified to leave, what I will go back to will be familiar, but not at the same time. I don't know how it will be like. Back to my hometown, I remember my life there before I came, and now, I have even forgotten where I came from, being here in India so long. So much change, so much time has passed. So, what will it be like. I feel this sort of epic beat in my heart, excitement and even anxiety. What will I do when I go back? What will my life be like then? I am just going to be spending my time on the plane just thinking about what to do... this has been the most emotional ride of my life.

What a year. Year of my life. Incredible India. Really is something. When I arrive, I am going to run into my mother's arms and grandmother's arms and hug and pick up my brother. It's just the definition of bittersweet...

Last Days

The heat is unbearable at times, makes me feel like I could take anything when I go back to America.

I can already imagine what it's going to be like, being in Mumbai, alone... waiting.

But you know, I am not so sad, I am but I am not. I just realized how much of an experience this has really been for me...The ups and downs... wow.

I made it to India, and it's been amazing...